A few days ago I noticed I've been having a lot of back pain, skin has been real itchy and irritable and then I started having this brownish red discharge. Needless to say, I still haven't had my period. The discharge stopped for a day and then it started back up. I've been reading up on yahoo answers, and nearly everyone says this is implantation breeding. I'm so afraid of getting excited, especially since I took a pregnancy test the other day and it was negative. But I might have taken it too soon.

I'm going to be scheduling an appointment with planned parenthood soon. I should schedule it today... Oh God, I am so scared and happy all at once. I don't want to mention anything about it to Matt either. I don't wanna mention anything to my family... I just want to go and have a blood test done at PP and find out yes or no... if no, then I want to know what the heck is going on with my body. Who do I really have to hold my hand through this? I know I have Matt, but he has enough stress to deal with as it is. I do have Rene... but where the heck is the closest PP to get to? Oy...