I went Trick or Treating with Rene, my mom and my 2 year old Godson; Ayden. Rene had me take him up to a house, one of the first ones.. to get a piece of candy for him. We had instructed him how to do it and the first house he ran up to and dropped his bag in his excitement to yell 'Trick Treat! Hi, Hi!!!"

I carried him up the walk way and he was struggling, crying and beginning to scream that he was scared. I looked over at Rene and she told me to go ahead and take him, he'd be okay. But I pressed my fingers to his chest and his heart was beating like crazy and when we got back and I put him in his stroller.. he was shaking. It was really breaking my heart and I told her he was shaking.. and she said he'd be fine.

I said, "Rene.. he's scared to death, he's only two years old." And her response was.. "And if we leave now, what about when he's three.. or five.. or eight?! He'll be scared then, too."

It really hurt my feelings.. It's like she was implying I didn't know what the hell I was talking about. I felt like she was taking him out for aesthetic purposes. With an, 'oh look how cute my 2 year old, dressed up like batman. Let's see how much candy we can get!'

It made me sick, it made me angry.. I would never put my baby through it if he was terrified like that. She made me feel like I'd be a bad mother.. she made me feel like the scorn in her eyes was saying... "You don't know what the fuck you're talking about, you don't have any children." Am I going to be a bad mom if I don't force my children to go out for Halloween if they are absolutely scared shitless? It hurt me to see that baby crying, shaking and his heart beating that wildly.. all for the sake of some stupid candy and costumes. It made me sick to witness it.