I mentioned to Matt, that he could hold off on proposing to me about a week ago.


The clue's he'd given to me to guessing when he'd pop the question were '30' and 'It concerns a date'. He was positive our anniversary was on the 22nd of August. Laying in bed a couple nights ago, I asked him to tell me when he'd been planning to propose. He said the day had passed. I couldn't help feeling a little sorry for myself and the botched situation. We've been so broke lately, and he was so stressed and worried about the approaching date to propose..


He hadn't been able to get a ring as quick as he'd hoped. He was so relieved to hear me tell him to hold off on proposing due to the stresses we've been going through.


8+22 = 30


The date? He'd been planning on asking me at the place we'd had our first date, this beautiful park sitting on this roughly hewn bench. On our anniversary.


The day passed, and I had been none the wiser.


The bright side? I know he loves me more than anything, I know he wants it to be perfect when he asks me to marry him. I'm just happy that he wants to spend the rest of our lives together.


I love him so much. So what the date for asking is pushed back? But why do I still feel a little sad? I wonder what he was thinking on that day.. I can't remember if he was moody on that day. I hope he didn't feel miserable because his plan went awry. He is my soulmate.